Monday, June 27, 2016

In Memory Of [Chapter 1]

Click here for the song the woman is singing

There was a person sitting on my bench.  Okay, so I guess it was actually my grandfather's bench, it was in memory of him after all.  But everyone in town new it was my bench.  I went there to read, write, play guitar, or just cry, and nobody ever bothered me.  It wasn't like the cemetery, where you would see someone crying at a graveside and feel obliged to pray with them. I could grieve in peace there and all everyone else could do was whisper to their friends, "There's Elmer's crazy granddaughter, bless her heart."  

But yet here was this person I had never seen before, in my spot.  If they had been smoking or on their phone or reading the newspaper or just sitting there, I would have just left and went to the cemetery.  If they had been crying, I might have hugged them.  But no, they were singing softly in a smooth and flawless voice. It was something I couldn't understand, maybe French.  They were smiling but when our eyes met for a split second they looked sad.  So I joined them on the bench. 


They turned, but didn't stop singing. 


La mer
Les a bercés
Le long des golfes clairs
Et d'une chanson d'amour
La mer
A bercé mon cœur pour la vie


That must have been the last verse because then they stopped.  Their face was still made up of a happy smile and sad eyes.  I took the time to really look at them.  It was a woman, an old woman with wispy gray hair and laugh lines.  She wore a dark pink dress with lipstick of the same shade.  A silver broach of an owl with gold eyes was secured to her chest.  She was absolutely beautiful, the prettiest woman I had ever seen who was old enough to be grandmother.  

"That was beautiful."  I said in an awed whisper, only realizing after I said it that she might not speak English.

"It was his favorite." She patted he gold plaque on the bench that bore my grandfather's name. "He would play piano and I would sit next to him on the bench and sing.  Neither of us actually owned a piano though, so we stayed at the music store until we were kicked out, every day."

What she was saying didn't make sense, my papaw didn't play piano. And I didn't know this lady.  This was a town where everyone knew everyone and if she had so much as asked him for sugar once,  I  would have at least heard of her. 

"You knew my grandfather?"

Her pale blue eyes lit up and this time when she spoke I noticed a french accent.  Not a heavy one, just a slight lilt to her words. "You are Grace and Timothy's little girl?"

"I'm Harmony.  And I would hardly say I'm Grace and Timothy's.  I never met Grace and Timothy left when I was 3.  So, no, I've always been Elmer and Elizabeth's little girl."  I never talked about my parents and I had no idea why I felt compelled to tell my life story to this stranger.  Maybe I thought she might have known my mom and dad and I was desperate to know something, anything, about the people who gave me my curly hair and dark brown eyes and skin that was neither black nor white but some middle ground.  Maybe I was just glad there was someone talking to me who didn't have that, "You poor thing.", look on their face.

She nodded sympathetically.  "Your grandfather and I were friends. Best friends actually, we caused all kinds of trouble together.   We met in France, he had to go back to the states, I stayed.  But he always wrote. 1 letter every single week. For 30 years."

I smiled, there was something heart warming about my grandpa keeping in touch with her for 30 years.  I was also more than a little curious about him.  About the man Elmer Jennings was before he became Grandpa Elmer.  "Can you tell me about him, about you guys."

She grinned and cleared her throat. "Oui. It was during the war..."


Friday, June 24, 2016

Quote of the day 2

Colors

Her lips taste red
Warm and strong under mine

Her voice sounds blue 
Cool and clear all of the time

Her face looks pink
Beautiful and vibrant in the night

Her jacket smells yellow
Sweet and happy like sunlight

Her hand feels purple
Reassuring and comfortable to hold tight

I keep my self up dreading
She'll think everything about me is grey and white


My history

Sometimes I feel like
Alexander Hamilton
Fixed upon writing so no one forgets me
Burying pieces of myself for someone else to see

Sometimes I feel like
 Marie Antoinette
Sent to Versailles where I don't belong
Punished for finishing somebody's song

Sometimes I feel like
Susan B Anthony
Caught up in so many never ending fights
Stubborn in my refusal to give up my rights.

Sometimes I forget the present is repetition
Of the past
But then I just look at my reflection

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

6 Word Memoir Mass Post




Define Poetry

                                                               Poetry:
             To manipulate death for eternity 
             or squirm into a symphony
             or cry gorgeous dreams
             or pound at dying magic. 
             

how to: be happy

                   sleep every night
                   to remember 
                   yesterday

                   let the woman
                   live for
                   color

                   trust a friend
                   to believe 
                   dreams

                  cut flowers and
                  linger with
                  winter

                  learn from secrets 
                  and devour 
                  light

                  keep joy vast
                  and not
                  decaying

The Priviliged Child

                                       a daughter as
                   elaborate as fire
  
                   born with velvet
                   for a sister

                   happy as your 
                   porcelain prisoner

                  always delirious from
                  repulsive beauty
       
                  but haunted by 
                  you

The End

                       What would happen if the sun never rose in the sky?
                       Would the moon cry?
                       Wondering what happened to it's long lost 
                       lover?
                       Hoping that it's okay, that it didn't 
                       suffer?

                      What would happen when the world went dark?
                       If that mama and baby never left the park?
                       If that quick goodbye kiss was the last one you 

                       shared?
                       If you never knew for sure if she
                       cared?

                      What would happen once everything went cold?
                      Would you forget for a second all you had been told?
                      Would you treat those last few moments like a new
                       beginning?
                      Would you finally choose to live like the world is
                       ending?
    
                                       
                                       
                                   

The Changing of the Leaves

                         Do leaves look forward to autumn?
                                 
                         Do they twitch anxiously in anticipation 
                         waiting to break free from from the tree?
                         Do they dream of sailing through the wind
                         hoping they can float all the way through the sea?

                         Or do they tremble in fear
                         hating the idea of leaving home?
                         Do they cling tightly to where they belong
                         too nervous to let themselves roam?

                         Is autumn like the end of school?
                         Or more like the end of youth?
                          Is it something to look forward to?  
                          Or just an inevitable truth?